Sunday, January 17, 2010

Frustrated and Disappointed

Have you ever had one of those friends you knew the only thing you could 100% count on was that, if given the chance, they would disappoint you?

You know the one I am talking about. The one who when you truly need them isn't there, but saves the day just as you are about to cut them out of your life AGAIN?

I have a lot of friends who are supportive, compassionate, and caring. They sense what I need and they do their best to provide it, even if it is a silly picture to make me laugh. Yet, the one person who can provide the one thing I need more than anything right now is either too oblivious, too selfish, or too arrogant to give it to me. It cuts me to the core. I know I need to walk away and not let him/her be in a position to disappoint me, but I just can't. This person is a necessary evil right now. But the very minute that it is possible, I am going to give the good-bye speech of my life - I have been practicing it in my head for over a year - and I will walk away. Count on it.